| So it's winter break and my entire family's home...lol yes, my mommy, daddy, doggie, and me....big family i know. And I'm sick...the firm and I have determined that it's the flu...oh joy... Anyhoo. I still have a paper due and a brief to start working. Here's the sad part. I'm much more interested in finishing the paper and brief than I am in working. I know I'm really going to miss school once I graduate. I honestly feel as if I live for school, its activities (via SBA and the student organizations) and even academics (including Moot Court competitions). I'm so tempted to sign up for McClennon again just for shits and giggles. Too bad it conflicts with Duberstein and Vis moot. Life as an attorney, assuming this offer doesnt get rescinded, is going to suck. The staying in SD part is actually nice. I'm looking forward to moving into Hillcrest either by myself or with Lisa but staying in the current field is going to suck. Then again, if Wendy keeps up her end of the offer, I have an open invitation to transfer to the LA offices where they actually see Civil Litigation work...but i'm iffy about leaving and moving back to the one place I was trying to get away from. Also, I have an incentive to stay in SD...then again...4 months ago I had incentive to live in Vegas, shit or travel anywhere for a particular reason. Those incentives are all gone. Maybe this SD incentive will disappear too...we'll see in 2 weeks I guess. So confused. I guess it's really time to grow up. I look at myself, 26 years old, and still nowhere in life. My mom was already a mother at this age. My dad had already established his first business and they were both traveling back and forth between Taiwan and the US. So many of my friends are either married, engaged, in a long term relationship heading to marriage, or "grown up" in a settled career path. Where am I? Still in school, no prospect of marriage anywhere in the near future, might be stuck in a field of law that I hate, possibility of getting another offer rescinded with the way this damn economy's going, maybe not passing the bar on the first try (which would just be the icing on the cake)....oh the joys of life... First New Years Resolution: Stop playing games. I've already been informed, the fact that I let people get away with pretty much anything short of murder makes them feel as if I dont really care, and that they can just keep continuing to play. No more. |
